to be young again
So I was waiting in line to pay the parking ticket at Tropicana Mall and I had a sudden urge to scratch my tattoo. It gets itchy sometimes, but this one feels like spider sense tingling. A chick walked past and at the corner of my eye I can see that she’s looking at me. I glanced at her, but she quickly looked down on the floor.
Oh great, this is the ex I haven’t seen for 8 years.
But before I continue, I must say that this was after watching Harry Potter and The Perils of Teenage Romance. Its not that I don’t like the movie, it’s pretty decent. I just felt exactly like Dumbledore when he said “Ah, to be young again …”. I won’t spoil it for you, but you’ll understand when you see it.
I actually asked myself, “when was the last time I was in love?” Well, I’ve been single for a year, I was certainly not in love with the girl before that, and I don’t know if I can count the long-distance one. Rewind a little more and it gets even murkier. So that leaves Little Miss S, who after 7 years still manages to break my heart. Not that there’s much of it anymore anyways.
My best bud, Farah is on the same boat. Too traumatized by a previous relationship, she gets icky when she sees couples being happy. I poke fun at her, because I’m not that jaded. Still, I don’t see myself being in love again anytime in the near future. Its almost like I’m incapable of putting myself out there anymore. Too lazy, too picky, too many excuses not to get into it.
All in due time right? WRONG.
Today is the first time my family (including aunts) asked me “So, Jason. If you have your wedding on the 9/9/2009, that would be a good date right ? Or how about 10/10/2010? After all, you’re 26 already! I thought only girls get these kinda questions! Mum, I’m too happy being single at the moment! Who needs a girlfriend when I can hang out with my buddies whenever, work nights, and have good friends such as the ones I have ! (that’s for another post).
So, back to the story.
She didn’t know I recognized her so it was up to me to say hi. I was a little tired and she was there with her boyfriend, so I didn’t feel like being chirpy Jason Phoon. She was queing somewhere behind me, and she looked a little taller than me (funny, Farah today asked me if I was okay with dating someone taller than me. damn those heels). I also remember that the last time I saw her was when she slammed my car door (I liked some other girl). I guess you can say that we didn’t really end on good terms.
I always wondered why I never bumped into her all these years. KL is not that big right? Now I know its because when she sees me, she tries to hide away or something. Not all of them say hi, and not all of them you get along with eh ?
Its not like you can go, “heyyyyy, how you doing ? loooking greattt”
I’ll keep this in mind the next time my tattoo itches:
“Look around for an ex”
I’m glad I don’t have any exes or current endeavours.
It would be too painful to bear!
oh you’ll get over it. then you’ll get jaded. like meeeee
Not everyone gets a Taylor Swift Love Story hehe, i think she’s hot in the music video.
aiyo , why la mention taylor swift ?
how old is she anyways ?
20 this year i think. thats good, not a jailbait, just ripe, just right!
personally i don’t think love really exist. It is more of whether we are comfortable with the other person.
Was adam and eve ever married?
it exists la. seen it before. done it before … ehehehhe
Haha I practically lost interest in the word love 2 years ago. Haha times had changed, so aunts will also pop up that kinda question to guys. I so hate it each time someone ask me “have you got yourself a bf” and they sounded like as if it’s so darn easy, like as if it’s just the matter I want or not, and they don’t realize things are so much more complicated than before. Sigh.
hahaha , they think you’re too picky ! lol
There there.. *pat* *pat*
It’s easier (not by much) to shrug off wedding questions when you’re single… imagine.. poor me.. I’ve been harassed for the last 8 years about wedding plans!! Wtf…
You’ve been with Aaron for 8 years ? GOSH
keep the faith in love, jp. your day will come… =)
whoah , keep the faith !
Could it be, my day has passed ?
OMG yeah we’re like so totally BFFs y’all! giggles!
PPP
but ever wondered that love could be of a different type as we age and not all that rosy/romantic shit as it was in our youth? we’re getting OLD dude!
Yeah , love is when two adults settle into a monotonous routine that is safe and economically sound. There’s the benefits of a dual income and also the very human need to reproduce so that the genes live on.
Its only natural.
yeah, as you grow old, so does your thinking
things get old, not as exciting or lovey dovey anymore
surely love is different every stage of your life
today is great, tomorrow can be something else, and vise versa
thats the fact of life
that all said, it doesnt mean love should be pushed aside just cuz someone got hurt here and there or now and then
love has its own use
every love, and marriage, has it benefits on both receiving ends, whether financially or whatever
when we need it, we will know its important and its great
when love doesnt find us, its easy for the ego to rationalise that love sucks
worse when we feel betrayed (the fact that in life, love doesnt owe you anything)
thats when thinking starts to get “old”
but who’s to blame?
look at ourselves
we create it, we also destroy it
dont worry your not the only only one thinking about realtionships 8 years old
some times the good ones get away least you didnt make a complete fool of yourself an try to get her back just to have her lead you on an then tell you she has learned alot about relationships an feels “good about the one she is in”
Your better off finding some 18 to 20 year old girl an bang her rotten to boost your ego.
life plays fucked up tricks on us all.
to the girls who think finding good guys is hard , imagine if you were a guy looking for a good girl . a girl just has to wink a man has to woo
most girls even ugly ones can serial date
only men with lots of money or player status can do the same.
pal, i feel sorry for ya
cant blame her for feeling good and contented
there’s no tricks, just pure economics, that the perceived benefits are better than the perceived disadvantages
so its what you do to turn the tides around
if you succeed, you might still think that banging 18-20 old girls boosts your ego, cuz i bet it always does