to be honest

I’m not very happy with my blog right now. In my opinion, I haven’t blogged a proper confessional entry for what feels like months now. I have so many things I wish I could say, but I just don’t know how to say them. Then after some time has passed, I don’t feel like saying them anymore.

About my life, it’s really great in theory. I work during the day, have night classes and do my assignments on the weekends. Sometimes I hang out with my friends and just play computer games, or we go out for the rare adventure (which we really should do more often). Then I go back home and talk on the phone with my long-distance girlfriend.

Which brings me to my next point. Long distance relationships are tough! So many times I wish I was back home or she was right here, especially when we go through rough patches. Sometimes I feel I take her for granted, like not calling her enough or whatever. I really wish I could do more, but I’m just so far away. Doesn’t mean I don’t love her okay.

I have just 2 more months here in Brisbane, before I have to go back home after I graduate. I haven’t even been to Movieworld or Dreamworld! Can you believe that ? I could stay if I found a job that would sponsor me, or any other option I might have.  You know what really brings me down ? I want to stay and work here in Australia, but the one I love is back home in Malaysia. Do I really have to choose between both of them ? Do I actually have a choice ? I don’t know at the moment.

What I do know is, I’m going to go bungee jumping. And get a tattoo. Fuck yeah.

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jamez said:

Call me a person without a future, but i would choose to go home and be with that someone i love. Cause i know i can still find a future next to my loved one in Malaysia. I can find a job anywhere, but i can’t find that one person that mean the same way. If it means anything at all, I think it would have meant so much to her.

Just my thought.

On other notes, Let’s go SINGAPORE!!!! I wanna get my tattoo TOO!!!! Fuck YEAH!!

 
aggie said:

Uhm..it is quite a predicament..but if you really want to give your best shot in your relationship with someone special then go home. The “maybes” and “what ifs” just aren’t worth it.

 
Kurt said:

What’s stopping you from coming back to KL, getting hitched, and returning to Oz with a PR? Skilled migration for the win, man. :)

 
pkpkpk said:

JPJPJP, long time since i left a comment here. At last you are updating something about your life…:D
You can always go back to Malaysia, get 2 yrs of experience and apply for skillled migration and sponsor your love one along with you. :)
On another note, if there is really someone that is willing to sponsor you, then maybe you should grab the opportunity, less cost as oppose to appointing a migration agent…Later you can also sponsor her to Australia, if you guys are still together…
Cheers!

 
nabilla said:

yes LDR sucks. and yes uncertainties sucks. and yes having to make decisions sucks too. but what does not quite qualify as shit though is knowing at least there is someone out there across the ocean that loves you, is waiting for you, and who is willing to put up with all your gayness and ‘not-enough-ness’ just because she loves you. OK jason, remember that. love is all about wanting to be with that person regardless of how imperfect everything is.

i hope this make sense. and you need to hang out with me! long overdue (but lets makes it sometime end of next week) :)

 
::Nicole:: said:

i think i’ve said this to u many times but i’d say it again ‘if u think u’ve found ‘the one’ then come home.. u can find a job anywhere and anytime’ :)

 
nicwan8 said:

Your second option will be finding a job here and ask her to accompany you here.

Honestly, we are in the same industry and I feel we get more appreciation here than in Malaysia.

 
Michael said:

If i am you, i would stay and build on my career in Australia. You’re still young, do not give up on such good opportunity.
There are those that wish to be in your position and end up having to stay in Malaysia as they do not have enough points to move to a better country. Think about it…

 

100% support you in whatever you do ~

i know it’s tough… life is always tough. nothing comes easy u know~~

i cannot promise the mountain and the sky that things will work out perfectly - but as long as we are willing to try.. that’s still 1% chance….

btw, love this song… John Legend’s SOMEDAY (from movie August Rush)

we’ll get older we’ll get over
we’ll live to see the day that I hope for
come back to me
I still believe that
we’ll get it right again
we’ll come back to life again
we won’t say another goodbye again
you’ll live forever with me
someday, someday
we’ll be together
someday, someday

 
ken. said:

HELL YEAH. bungee jumping this weekend (or next)! TATTOO RIGHT AFTER! (throws up rock sign) :P

 
michy said:

If I were you, I will stay there. Perhaps, rship at this moment isn’t important to me. OMG! Ur gonna get a tattooooooooo

 
Eileen said:

Bring me along when u get a tattoo. Well, in a way, a job can always be replace but love is harder. True that opportunities to work overseas is hard to find. But deep down you should know what is more important to you.

 
stephanie said:

mu cha mu cha !

dont be a china man n alwasy think about money ok !! think about working from home, n that can be anywhere ;)

except for mlm/ insurance - not a fan - never understood it !!

 
jasonphoon said:

wow, so many different opinions about long distance relationships !

>> ::Nicole:: replied:

hmmm.. am i in a LDR too?? hahaha..

 
>> stephanie replied:

Your choice end of the day mate !

There are only so man choices because all is possible !

Touch part - WAHT DO U WANT ?

 
 
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