those three words
An ex of mine drunk dialled me and asked me a horribly difficult question:
“Did you ever love me?”
To which I responded (with hesitation), “I don’t even know what is love anymore”. She interpreted this answer in the worst way possible and I felt like a total douchebag. I did tell her that I have mixed feelings about her, which were both good and bad. When I was with her, it was always a battle between both our humongous egos and the inability to openly declare feelings. Also, we never used those 3 words.
You know, those three words that are said too much, but not enough?
Anyways, I’ve used those words before. I’m pretty sure I meant them. I’m pretty sure I felt it. It also seems that the older I get, the more complicated the feelings those words arouse. It was much easier to say when I was young and innocent. Now I hesitate to use them.
So there you go, another reason for me to feel like an asshole.
update: So, apparently I was wrong about her reaction to my answer. According to her, she was referring to another guy on her blog entries and whatever she said that night while drunk, I should dismiss. So I guess I’m not such a douchebag after all.
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lolx… chill la dude. if love is easy — then it’s not love
You know what? SHE’S the asshole for drunk-dialing you and putting you on the spot. F her!
yeah man, what is she trying to do? it’s over means it’s over, why still want to play the emotional game with you? sigh.
She may be feeling insecure or labouring hopes, thats all. So yeah, make it clear if its over.
yeah , there was no indication for 2-3 months before this, and suddenly a drunk-dial ? I don’t get it either …
Well, no indication does not mean she doesnt have feelings / hope for you (last 2-3 months). But well it does not mean she does either. You know better
Maybe she was already reconciling to that fact, but i think she also wanted to know, if you ever loved her, to find a good meaning out of it at the end of the day. I think it was clear she was emotional about it and it affected her in some way…
whoah , sounds like you’ve been drunk dialled before ! hahah
So what is your outcome now?
What is it that you want?
Do you know what you want?
You’re learning well, young man.
Yes man, teach me the way of the asshole >o<
where do i sign up?
hmm…maybe she is having emotional problems herself.
Don’t worry you don’t have to feel bad ok. You are not obliged to say ‘i love you’ if you have doubts. When it’s true love, you don’t have to hesitate, you will know.
And till that time comes, just enjoy life and be happy.
Life is short, make it sweet.
Lol I think you’re over thinking.
But whatever makes you happy!
p/s: From what I recall, she wasnt calling for you.
What a liar man ~ u are the worst bf i have ever seen ~ all the girls don’t stay close to this guy ~ this guy is horrible man ~
why? you know him in person? who are you to judge who he is?
You would know, since you are obviously one of his jilted ex-lovers?
stay away from Roy! he’s judgmental!
He’s like Arnold in Judge Dredd. So judgy! Hahaha
lol, that is Slyvester Stallone by the way !
hahaha i was about to say that. “Arnold? was there another sequel? “
i dont think you know jason well enough to say something like that. Unless you’re saying you’re the ‘perfect’ person to have made it well in this world?
Then it probably means he doesn’t know Jason well enough to say something good either. People can judge him, but it doesn’t matter. Jason is jason
i listen to a lot of classical music. Hahaha. Anyway, prelude on 15 is a popular one among the 24. You should try listening to nocturnes or waltz. Op69 no 2 ( Nocturne ) is good.
Why are guys afraid to say those three words?
Yes , i have 2 of his nocturnes. They’re pretty good …
as to your question ,it’s not just guys okay. Girls too !
drunk-dialling is cheap chou chou. I hate people drunk-dialling, whether it comes from the guy or the girl, it’s equally the same. Love never existed for me anymore, it’s something from the past
Ehh , don’t say that. I drunk dial a lot too .. hehehe
“Did you ever love me?”
“Did you ever eat my balls?”
And enjoy the awkward silence on the other side.
Or, enjoy her coming over and eating your balls. You can’t lose with this one.
hahahaha! okay i had a funny image in my head…
i remember there was a song on ‘did you ever love me?’ now u can use your creativity for the next one.
again , the winner of best comment goes to KURT!!!
sigh, somehow , with comments like that , you’re still married ! lol
HAIYA. Stop thinking so much and go get yourself a nice big Ice-cream.
HEy does it make me an asshole if I don’t think that what you did makes you an asshole?
no, it doesn’t
Isn’t it hard dealing with ex? I am a girl, I know. Sometimes girls can be problem. Whatever you say is wrong. Like if she asks you :” Have you ever loved me?” If you answer to fast, she would say you answer before thinking. If you answer after awhile, she might question you why take so long to answer. Mate, that’s girl.
jason, i’ve been following ur blog avidly and lately the feelings you’ve described sound mighty familiar. i believe i’ve encountered these emotions being felt by the heroes in countless romantic novels! and always there would be a heroine who would be able to make the hero believe in all the good things about love again. i hope you will find your heroine someday
in the meantime, keep posting! i love reading your blog (now would you believe that kind of love?)
A heroine ? to save the day ?
That’s new !
omdg.. i haven’t read your blog for a while.. and when i do.. you’re more emo than i’ve ever seen u.. don’t worry too much about it jason.. love is overrated.. and she was so pulling at your heartstrings.. screw her..
Winner of the most cynical comment !
Jason = Cancerian = emo =D