It’s that time of the year again when you feel if there was something you missed. Something you didn’t do, or should have done better.

For me, I think I spent the better part of the year mostly in my own thoughts, or in a solitary electronic world. TV, movies, music and video games. The major interface I have with people is through a computer monitor, using words or magic.

I hope that doesn’t become part of how I deal with life. Avoiding it and turning inwards. That could even be connected to times I wake up and sleep. To avoid people ?

Then again I think about the new friends I met this year. And how I’ve opened up much more than before. About the shell I built around myself in the past, which is unhealthy. Now I know nobody is isolated, it is their own choice.

This year also brought two major changes in my life. For one, I’ve completed my studying. No more exams and no more classes. Somehow I have mixed feelings about that. I’m supposed to be happy right ? I kinda miss college life and sometimes I dread the thought of working. Then again I’ll be earning my own dough ( its somewhat more rewarding spending money you earned yourself )

Earlier this year I broke up with my girlfriend. It was the kind of relationship where people expected to last till the twilight years. Sometimes I wonder if things could have been different or could I have handled it better. I still don’t know if I’ve completely let go or ever will.

Quite an eventful year I would say. The weird teen -> adult stage. I’m still somewhat a kid inside, refusing to grow up. But I feel myself changing. A new shadow.

What’s your year about ?