If your whole life revolves around your significant other, you have to rethink your priorities. If a guy/girl comes into your life and turns it around, what does that say about your life ? Does this mean it was empty and meaningless before she came into your life ? If your answer is yes, there might be something wrong with you.

I had a friend who asked his girlfriend to run away from home. He said he’ll take care of her and pay for her college tuition fees. All this when he was only 21 years old. Man, he couldn’t even keep a steady job for a month ! Fortunately the girl wasn’t stupid enough to believe him and she broke up with him a month later.

Or another one, where he used to say “I will love you forever”, and go broke buying stuff for his girlfriend. All with his parents money!

Or the one who said “My life is meaningless” after his girlfriend left him. Then he found another one and he said the same thing. Get a fucking clue!

Anyways my point is, if you can’t even take care of yourself, how can you take care of somebody else?

A girl ain’t gonna fix your problems and she sure ain’t gonna rely on you for security if you’re not independent (emotionally or financially). Somewhere along the line, a whole generation of guys have lost their balls and turned into so called “sensitive new age guys”. I have the right to call them that, because I used to be one.

It’s true, I used to be a needy, jealous, self-sympathizing, emotional black-hole of a person. Some of my ex-girlfriends can attest to that, and boy did I give them shit. I’m so sorry about that, and you girls would be so proud that I grew out of that teenage angst. I’m definitely in a happier place right now.

In fact, I’m more selfish these days. Apparently, girls like a little backbone in their men!

What I learned over the years is that, you have to fix your own problems first, think about your future, and focus on what makes you happy. The center of your life is you, not your religion, not your job, not your computer games, not your possessions and certainly not your significant other. Hard to accept, but it’s true. None of these things will fix you if you don’t’ want to fix yourself.

Which brings me to lesson number 2 of the manifesto:

2) the center of the universe is you

Everything else will flow from there.

I’m staying another semester here in Australia. I would actually graduate next year in March and by then I would have worked one year. That’s good enough to then apply for a Permanent Residence! Or at least give me time to look for a job that would sponsor me here in Australia.

I’m still going back to Malaysia in July though, for 2 weeks. I then finally get to see my girlfriend. I have mixed feelings about that, cause I’m only going to see her for a short while, then I have to fly back here. The long distance relationship has had it’s ups and downs, and we’ll see what happens after July.

Other than that, work, study and life here has been really great! Busy, but really great. One of my goals in the past few years was to be self-sustaining by the time I’m 25. I know, my parents paid for my tuition fees, but I’m paying my own rent and food! I’m sorta halfway there!

So I leave you guys with this quote:

“Hey ! Take it easyyyyyyy” - Nacho Libre

I’m not very happy with my blog right now. In my opinion, I haven’t blogged a proper confessional entry for what feels like months now. I have so many things I wish I could say, but I just don’t know how to say them. Then after some time has passed, I don’t feel like saying them anymore.

About my life, it’s really great in theory. I work during the day, have night classes and do my assignments on the weekends. Sometimes I hang out with my friends and just play computer games, or we go out for the rare adventure (which we really should do more often). Then I go back home and talk on the phone with my long-distance girlfriend.

Which brings me to my next point. Long distance relationships are tough! So many times I wish I was back home or she was right here, especially when we go through rough patches. Sometimes I feel I take her for granted, like not calling her enough or whatever. I really wish I could do more, but I’m just so far away. Doesn’t mean I don’t love her okay.

I have just 2 more months here in Brisbane, before I have to go back home after I graduate. I haven’t even been to Movieworld or Dreamworld! Can you believe that ? I could stay if I found a job that would sponsor me, or any other option I might have.  You know what really brings me down ? I want to stay and work here in Australia, but the one I love is back home in Malaysia. Do I really have to choose between both of them ? Do I actually have a choice ? I don’t know at the moment.

What I do know is, I’m going to go bungee jumping. And get a tattoo. Fuck yeah.

This was my schedule this week:

• Monday
  Class. Assignments. Errands.
• Tuesday
  Work. Night class.
• Wednesday
  Work.
• Thursday
  Work. Night class.
• Friday
  Morning class. Errands.
• Saturday
  Wash clothes. Do assignments.
• Sunday
  Assignments. I think I’m going out.

In fact, I’m doing assignments right now. On a Saturday night.

I’m such a dull boy.

I knew this day would come, that you find out about my blog. I guess it would be sooner or later, and it probably won’t be hidden from you for too long anyway.

It must be a little weird to read so much about your son, or the fact that this blog has been around for so long without you knowing. Well, now that you found it, I might as well describe a little of what goes on around here:

• I draw comics sometimes. Contrary to what my comics potray, I don’t hate women.
• Yes, I’ve taken drugs before. It was only once, and it was out of curiosity.
• I’ve been to a strip club here in Brisbane once, out of curiosity too.
• Here’s some photos of my time here in Brisbane.
• Don’t mind the people that comment on my blog. They’re a little crazy.

I guess you would drop by once in a while, and hopefully not get too shocked about the content here. Remember, take things with a little pinch of salt, as I exagerrate once in a while.

Erm, guess that’s it. Enjoy.

My brother and me in the 80s. We go way back.

Previously, I wanted to drop out of university and work full time under a work visa, sponsored by my employer.

Bad news everyone.

It seems that my employer cannot meet the requirements to sponsor my work visa. Part of the requirements to qualify for the sponsorship, is that the company has to be incorporated. Even if they plan to incorporate, it would be about a year from now. I guess I’m a year too early.

So what am I going to do now ?

Well, I negotiated with my program convenor and worked out the best possible situation. Thank goodness I didn’t file my complain yet. Perhaps it was wise to not burn bridges just yet.

I now have only one class in the Gold Coast, and that’s on Mondays and I don’t have any other class on that day. I actually get to work on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday because my other classes are at night. Yeah, sounds tough but I’m willing to do it.

Well, it would have been super awesome for me to work full time instead, but I guess I can’t do anything about it for the time being.  Furthermore, at least I graduate middle of this year and I would probably go back to Malaysia in the middle of the year.

I know at least one person who would be happy that I’d be home …