being alone without being lonely
Throughout my life I’ve always needed someone to be there for me. It’s not some form of dependency but I guess I have a nurturing spirit. When we were young, I took care of my brother and put him to sleep sometimes. Now that he’s taller than me and we’re older, I guess it would seem very akward. eheh.
Later on when I was a teenager, girlfriends came into the picture. Some responded more than others. Some were annoyed that I was too doting. I guess they needed space.
Back then I was miserable when I was single.
Then somehow over the past year I’ve learn to be self sufficient. One way or another I get by. Of course sometimes I think of better times and feel sorry for myself. After a bout of self-pity, I just accept that those memories made me who I am today.
French philosopher Pascal said all of our troubles come from being unable to sit alone in a room. Until one is able to achieve that kind of peace, one will always be unhappy.
what if I was alone in the room with a computer and the internet and instant messenging. is that counted ?
Jason, I think when Pascal said that, computers weren’t invented yet.
Ehehehe!
“…I took care of my brother and PUT HIM TO SLEEP sometimes.”
Hahahagyeahh I know what that feels like. But it’s obvious now that you didn’t use enough benzodiazepine.
Angelo … hehe , i knew computers werent invented back then. -_-”
and kurt .. I don’t need no valium!