Don’t mind me, I drew this when I was really upset.

About a year ago I came to this city. I was feeling a little lonely because I haven’t made any friends yet and I remember sitting alone in that room. No phone, no internet and no friends. Back then I only had a few photographs and memories of someone to keep me warm.

Now that I think of it, those memories are static. Everything is just as it were, the street we grew up in and the evening before I left for the airport. In fact, I was so certain that she was my soulmate. You know the guy that puts the girl at the center of everything ? I used to be that guy. Not until I freaked myself out and bailed on her.

I always wanted to work abroad and I wished she could have come with me. Unfortunately, that was never a choice for her. We were still together for 2 years even though we were seeing other people. But that changed when I left the country. Eventually she moved on, and I realised it too.

Today, I was doing the dishes and cleaning up after a long day at work. I felt a little of last year’s loneliness, except this time it’s not as bad. Things have changed so much for me , and sometimes I feel like I’ve grown colder. My youthful idealism and childish fears have given way to a safe middle ground. Perhaps the most important thing is, that I’m not scared of growing up anymore.

Except for the fact that she might be getting engaged. I don’t really believe it’s happening or that she’s serious about it. You know what I said when she told me? I told her I’d ride into the church with a white horse and kick open the doors. Okay, maybe I’m in denial, but how am I supposed to accept that?

I still don’t know how to feel about it.

According to Facebook, I’m single again. I’ve always been fascinated at how dramatic the relationship status displays:

“Jason Phoon has ended his relationship”
“Jason Phoon is now listed as single”

These items are accompanied with a broken heart symbol, mind you.

Some of you may know, I was in a long distance relationship for about 4 months now. It was sweet while it lasted, but eventually we both decided we needed to be near each other if we were to continue. I guess that didn’t work out when I decided to stay here in Australia and work on getting a PR.

Well, I guess we both found out that we’re not cut out for a long distance relationship, especially one which might not have a future. At least the breakup went as smooth as possible, not like we were fighting or anything. Seriously I can’t handle that, cause I’m still studying for an exam tomorrow.

Well, back to “girls are evil” comics again.

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The simplest song. Its just how I feel at the moment. So much I want to say but I don’t know how, so I’ll just leave ya’ll with a song.

I plan to do something with it later, like add xylophones. Or maybe a toy piano. Maybe I’ll get one off ebay or something …

Any other weird ways that you know of ?

It’s a really busy week for me, with work, assignments and an exam this Saturday. So here’s a quick poll for ya’ll:

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Have a good week folks!