I think I wanna record my dreams here instead of my usual blue book of dreams. Somehow I find myself too lazy to open my drawer , take out a book , find a pencil and write in that book. Yeah , I’d rather just open my notebook and point my way to blogger. Ok , here’s what happened last night :

I remembered that I left my pet hamster ( ??!!! ) in my car. So I rushed out and opened the door and there it was , lying on the seat.

“I’m so hungggryyyy” said the hamster
“But you didn’t eat the cake I gave you” I replied.

Then he sorta dissapeared. I tried looking around the car for that little rodent , but to no avail.

I just finished reading Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist. It’s a really thought provoking tale of finding your dreams, even when events drive you away from them for a while.

Once in a while your heart speaks to you, asking you to do something. But then you have obligations, distractions and fears that take you further away from your desires. Then after a while you stop listening to your heart, and then it gives you the silent treatment. Then it comes roaring back to you in the form of a middle-age crisis.

You know, the type of crisis that makes you want to buy a ferari or sleep with the postman. Not that I have a middle age crisis though. But I’ve always been fearful of it since watching American Beauty. ( One of my favorite movies )

And then theres the problem of telling other people your dreams. You get this “Okayy…” and then this silent moment after that. I don’t know if its just me but I think people find it uncomfortable to talk about their dreams. Maybe we think that they’re unrealistic or unattainable ?

Anyways, reading the book itself was quite a challenge for me. Like my friend Ik, I have a little attention problem. While reading, I want to chat on MSN a while, or listen to music, or play video games.

I believe this could actually be happening to my life on a bigger scale. Like getting distracted from doing what’s really important in my own damned life. Well , maybe all this uselessness stems from the fact that I’m still not yet working and staying at home.

That’s gonna pass soon though, maybe one day I’ll miss these bumming days. Heck , I might even work for Microsoft or the MDC . Fingers crossed , hope for the best. Interviews time !

Yesterday my dad caught and killed a rat. My brother and I tried to help but we were more of a hindrance. The job was simple, he would prod the rat and it would jump out from behind the cupboard and we would smash it with a broom. But it was too quick and it ran across my foot.

Well , my dad cornered it and caught it. This is about the 2nd or 3rd time my brother and I tried to catch a rat but we never seem to have enough guts to catch it. Don’t know why, maybe us city boys aren’t just wired to kill anything larger than a mosquito.

Maybe one day my brother and I would have to catch one on our own.

Few days ago, the wooden tiles in the living room were mostly removed. This little mystery kept me and my brother guessing. The same thing happened in my brother’s room. Maybe it’s a rat my dad said. One night while I was sleeping I heard a squeaking sound in my room, like it was crying. It wasn’t a pleasant thing to wake up to mind you.

Good riddance to that rat anyways.

Ever felt like life is like surfing? You wait for your wave to come and when it comes ( it sure will ) you just gotta ride it.

Lately I’ve been a little laidback, sitting at the beach playing my guitar watching other people surf and enjoying the view. I’ve felt like I crashed on the rocks a little while getting my arm bitten by a shark and then getting stunned by jellyfish. But you get my metaphor ….

I just probably need some time to recuperate and pick myself up again and when I’m ready, I’ll be out in the ocean again, waiting for my wave to come …

And I watched Brokeback Mountain. The film is so romantic. Really, I’m not joking. The first makeout scene is kinda queasy to watch for me, and the film is so slow moving. I nearly slept at the beginning but later on I kinda enjoyed the movie. Heath and Jake really act well, considering the change in them as the movie progresses (over 20 years) .

I wouldn’t recommend the film to everyone, but if you’re curious enough ….

Well , some kinda valentines for me. Thanks for the company