Phew… I didn’t realize how dramatic that previous post seemed. Anyways, I’m just back from a minor depression. Nothing serious really, just that I got myself into habits which creeped up on me without me knowing it. I still don’t know what happened or that this bad feeling still here.

I still don’t really know why I feel this way. I guess it’s just part of growing up, and how being an adult makes you numb to certain things that might hurt you. Or might make you happy, I don’t know.

Anyways, tuition training is not going as planned. Seems that customers prefer private tuition. I have to drive to Shah Alam tommorow. Sigh , so far. The land of the round-abouts.

Oh , and I won an award for my final year project, wohoo!

And I’m so broke nowadays. In need of shopping spree for clothing too. Sighh….

Here’s to a better life ….

I’ve been doubtful of my abilities to make new memories lately. Like I’m always stuck in a void. That somehow the past is always better than the present.

Then I realize that I’ve not been taking too many chances. I play life safe, waiting for something. But what am I waiting for? Life is waiting for me and I’m waiting for it. Doesn’t make sense. Some people have been telling me this and I think I need to wake up. I think I’ve been inspired by recent events.

Just yesterdy I had a super fight with a very close friend. She mentioned that I take life too easy and let things come to me. I never work for anything I want. What she said is true to some extent. I’m just lazy. Okay , now I have to think about what really drives me in life. A passion for something.

All my life I’ve been waiting, but for what? I still don’t know yet. But at least I could try to make the best of what’s around. Life might be shorter than I think. To solve this, I plan to push my boundaries everyday. Small random things I can do to expand my horizons.

I’ll try to think of a list of crazy things to do. Any suggestions?

I think life is waiting for me.

… And so we went out on a date. We didn’t knew it was a date then but then again who knows? Well, randomly she said she wanted to go to Genting. Plus , we haven’t been to the casino. Just the two of us. Maybe we’d make up for lost time for all that 5 years we haven’t seen each other ?

Batu Caves

There was a traffic jam on the way there. So we decided to just drop by batu caves. Man those stairs are tough. I haven’t been there for ages. The whole place seems unreal. You just gotta be there to know what I mean.

Genting

We had a great time in Genting. It wasn’t really cold at all. We did not get into the casino anyways because I was wearing a t-shirt and she was wearing sandals. Stupid dress code. We sat on a roller-coaster though, it hurts the bum. Plus she said I looked good in polo shirts. To which I promise I would one day buy a polo shirt and post a picture of me wearing it.

The next day would be movie day at Times Square. That and also a major shopping spree. Well, at least it felt like a major shopping spree. Not that she bought a lot of stuff, but I had the energy sapped out of me.

Shopping malls = Exhausted men

We watched The Longest Yard. What can I say, Adam Sandler-type movie. Really funny for sick people. More walking after the movie! Off to Jalan Alor for its really good chicken wings. What a great day.

I was over at her house because she wanted to give me some photos. Standing outside her house sure brings back memories. I remember standing there broken hearted. The boy I used to be.

And there we were, like secondary school kids again. It felt like such a long time ago. Then again it could have been only yesterday. But it was five years. I had butterflies in my stomach as I always did. She was my angel.

Our feet. She’s a little camera shy.

… and we hugged farewell because we might never meet again. I helped her pack her stuff. She said her heart was heavier than the luggage she was carrying and she didn’t want to go just yet. I didn’t want her to go too. Maybe we’ll meet again in 5 years.