1) Jacob. He is moody and ghosts stay away from him.

2) Jeremiah. He can be cheeky and annoying.

This is my dad. His story is the typical “I cycled from the kampung to KL and I had nothing!!”. Well , he was from a rubber plantation. His dad and grandad migrated from China, to escape the so called “revolution”. Fuck the revolution I say , burning books and all. Well, I feel fortunate that my grandad left China. If not, I’ll be there playing Starcraft or something.

Life on the rubber plantation was tough. His 13 siblings had to share food and only had chicken on special occasions. They usually eat rice and sweet potatoes. Even Milo was a luxury.

Anyways, he left the rubber plantation after he got a scholarship(He’s very good at math) And somehow ended up in Taiwan. He was quite the playboy , having 2-3 girlfriends at a time. So they were broken hearted when he left Malaysia.

Anyways, I really admire my dad. I hope he doesn’t read this blog because I have to keep my reputation of being a lousy son. So thanks dad, happy belated fathers day.

I just attended a wake service for a friend. She was 24. I remember her being quiet and my best friend had a huge crush on her. I never knew she had cancer. She always looked so beautiful. Why did she pass away on my birthday ?

The service itself was disconcerting to me. They praised God and sang songs. Songs which reminded me of the time when I used to go to church.

And then I saw the coffin. I decided that when I die, I don’t want a funeral service. No service, no visits , no speeches. I’ve always wanted to be cremated and my ashes spread to places that are important to me. Currently I can only think of the Chao Praya River in Bangkok. I’ll think of more places.

I feel the need to live. But I seem tired.

I woke up yesterday. “I’m 22 already …”. Went for a lunch with Farah, it was on her!! Boy do I feel like someone’s bitch. Its unusual for me when the girl pays for the guy, I’m that old fashioned. The vietnamese laksa was super super spicy and the coffee was super super strong. Killed my brain a bit. Gotta experience that. Thanks Farah =)

I went home and took a nap because I was tired. I woke up at 11:30am, which is damned early by my bumming standards.

So I woke up, to get ready for my dinner with Shufen. We were going to Chilis to have a Country Fried Steak and Chocolate Molten Cake. Yummmmmmmmmmmmm. So off we went to 1Utama. So the plan was this, go to Chillis and watch the charity premiere of Fantastic Four. So I set my mind for that.

Nick: Surprise !!!
Jason: What are you guys doing here? I’m going to have Country Fried Steak and Molten Chocolate Cake!!

Nick : You ungrateful bastard!! We set this up for you!!
Jason : So we’re really not going to Chillis ?

Jason : Why you cut my cake ??!!
Shufen : It’s my birthday too !!

Julian: Notice how my shirt matches the table color. That was part of the plan.

Justin: We were dragged into this because Jason doesn’t have much friends.

Yumm .. this is actually really damned good!

But seriously, I had a really great time. The food was great and the company was great. I was laughing my head off most of the time and ate till I couldn’t eat anymore. I never had a surprise bday for me before, so this is actually a first for me. Thanks guys, I couldn’t ask for more.

There’s actually more pictures here

I just woke up because a sneaky bastard mosquito is around somewhere. It hides when I turn on the light. When the lights are off, it buzzes around my ear. Oh damned I hate these mosquitoes. Then I thought of a random event from each of the 22 years of my life:

1. I puked a lot. I was allergic to eggs.
2. I probably could walk already. So I was running around those pusher thingies.
3. My brother was born. I might have been jealous, being the elder brother and all.
4. I chased my brother around the house. He pooed on the floor and I slipped on it and fell.
5. I was in Genting. Wearing a blue jacket.
6. I wet my pants in kindergarten.
7. I fell down some stairs in Sri Cempaka.
8. My best friend was a girl and we walked around holding hands. We have arguments about what to draw on the art block.
9. I moved to another school, suddenly meeting with my childhood friends. I thought it was akward when a girl talked to me. So I avoided them.
10. My friend shared a salami sandwich with me.
11. I hated girls, they are icky I thought.
12. I had my first crush on a girl. That really sucks.
13. I gave my phone number to a girl. I wrote her number down too. We made plans to go out but somehow that didn’t happen. (She’s getting married now, present tense)
14. I went on a holiday to the U.S. I had a Korean girlfriend then, who was older than me. I lost contact with her now. I wonder how is she? hmm…
15. PMR sucks and is overrated. That said , I got straight A’s.
16. I told my parents that I would always be a good son. I wonder how’s that turn out ?
17. I was depressed for a whole year and hated girls. A girl dumped me last year ! NoooOO!!
18. In college, I drank a can of coke and was so hyperactive. Then I realize I love coffee. Yummm…
19. Night falls beneath beneath candle light.
    White squalls beneath winter skies.
20. I went to an Incubus concert with my girlfriend.
21. A trip to Bangkok with my girlfriend and her family.I decide that when I die, my remains will be cremated and some of the ashes will be scattered in the Chao Praya river.
22. I am writing this blog post.

Happy birthday , Jason. It’s been 22 good years.

Ashlin threw a frog at me yesterday expecting that I will jump out of the car , arms flailing , hysterical and start to scream like a little girl. Sorry to dissapoint you =)

Of course I’m not scared of a soft toy froggie. I’ll name it , ermm.. Froggie Rex. Yeah , it’s got a crown and all so I’m assuming it’s the king of frogs.

I don’t think that such a thing would attract frogs to my room right ? Unless there was a hex or curse on it. Hmm…

(For those who don’t know , I have frog phobia)

I just watched I ♥ Huckabees, a comedy on existentialism. One part of the movie struck me. Where Tommy hits Albert with a rubber ball repeatedly on his head, until Albert feels numb. The feeling of just being here in this very moment , in this very space. It goes like this:

Albert: Hit me with the ball now
(Tommy hits Albert with the rubber ball)
Albert: No , not yet …
(Tommy hits Albert with the rubber ball)
Albert: Closer…. naah . Not yet
(Tommy hits Albert with the rubber ball)
Albert: Yes …. I feel .. nothing.

Imagine getting hit in the face with a rubber ball a few times. Over and over and over until you feel connected to everything in this world. Connected to the very air around you. Withdrawn from all the human drama, feelings , history, responsibilites, aspirations and stress of this world. Disconnected from all your worries and frustration. A state of pure being.

Now wheres my huge rubber ball ?